I am so fat that....

We all know how that joke goes.  Your momma is so fat that.....  Well, today  I have decided to no longer be my own joke.  There are many words that describe me as I am a very complex person. ( Think onion..layers upon complex...layers.)  And, as many of those adjectives might not be flattering and I cannot change essentially who I am only improve on the less flattering characteristics of my personality (or choose to deny them).   I however, can change my appearance and my health.  How or why I gained weight is not going to help me from this point on.  How I lose weight and get healthy is my focus.   I have no desire to be a burden later in life due to health problems related to weight to my children or husband.   To me that is no worse then being a child of an alcoholic or smoker.  To lose a parent/loved one over something that was self induced is unfair to your family and if I am anything I want to be fair and die from something a little more dramatic.  Think along the lines of saving a bus load of puppies or taking a bullet for the President would be good too.

So Today I vow to start my new life.  I am declaring it online because it is the only thing that make me accountable and saves me from spending  few hundred dollars to go to a weight loss center and have some skinny 20 year old tell me how easy it is to loose weight or inject myself with someone elses pregnancy hormone.  Seriously, I hate to wear someone elses shoes much less their hormones.  YUCK!

I have committed to running the 5K River Run and start a running class workshop the first week of January and to do the 5K foam fest with my family.   Just to be clear I do not think I can run around the block.  I have a long way to go but I can do this.  I would like to be able to run 1/2 or a full mile by January.


My food goal is to have 1 or 2 meal replacement shakes a day and a balanced dinner.  I think the shakes will help me control my portion control and I would really like to follow a Clean Eating type of plan.  I have 40-50lbs to lose.  I will know my desired weight when I get there.   I am not going to say what shake or plans as I am not advertising or selling anything.  Truly, if I was to promote any product I would promote myself and tell you what  a great Realtor I was, how I have a list of homes that are not on the market yet and an insiders track into upcoming homes for sale, and the homes I sell have less days on the market and are able to get closest to asking price then other agents.....But, of course I wouldn't want to be so shameless as to do that.

If anyone wants to start this journey with me and or has any words of encouragement or even criticisms I would be glad to hear them.   Well, not the criticisms but I can handle them.   I already feel my determination failing and know if I don't just post this now...I NEVER will.  So, without re-reading, checking for typos and verify that this is not written as one giant sentence....I will post NOW!  Gulp.